Reflection

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Yes. No. Do we want it or don’t we. I mean, here we are asking everyone to see who we are but heaven forbid if we look in the mirror. What is all this about anyway? What are we looking for? Who are we hiding from? I only know my own reflection and yet I see you in it. I see you in me. I see me in you.
And you? What do you see when you look? How many more days and nights are you going to be in there? Do you want me to come find you? Ok… ready or not, here I come. Wait. What? You don’t want me to come find you? Make up your mind.
I am bold. I am fierce. And I arrived here with all the sounds, colors and visions of ancient times – and with just as much passion and desire to be seen as you.
Yes, You.
With your beautiful eyes that dance in my sight. With the knowing of innocence and your painful flight – your dreams once shattered when nothing else mattered and yet you stand before me and tell me everything is All RIGHT.
Indeed.
Oh You.
Let the whistle blow for a thousand miles and carry the sounds of my ancestors bound by silence. Those days are no more, for evolve we have and the sound of my voice is no accident. I have come to be still in the face of resistance and to beckon my helpers from unseen worlds of acceptance. To see and be seen we need each other.
And sometimes we need help.
I’m not afraid to declare it.
I’m no longer afraid to ask for it.
And now I am brave enough to receive it.
Yes Please, and Thank You.
 
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I took a leap of faith…

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I took a leap of faith. It’s not surprising. It’s what most would expect of me anyway. I mean, I never was one for standing still. My dad used to say “Junie, you can’t hit a moving target” and I took that to heart. Get a move on… say yes – and if you don’t know what you’re doing or where you’re going then that’s ok too. Because a minute from now is a long time and a lot can change in a minute.

Oh, just a minute. She says… well turn up the fire and pedal to the medal a minute is a mighty long time. I can change my mind; I can make it a rhyme as long as I don’t care if I’ve got enough time. I get to decide the twist and the turns and my revelations are subject to burn in a seconds notice… because…

I took a leap of faith.

Parade yourself in the face of reflection that you are the answer to all life’s directions.

I love you. How could I not? From every direction I am still the same me… sitting on my daddy’s knee, in my minds eye, at a time when moving was so yesterday.

So –

I took a leap of faith.

Inside Outside It’s all the same.

A wild hunted heart can never be tamed.

Leap. I dare you.   The sky might just catch you and the ground send you flying – for the only thing that matters is there’s movement and you can’t do anything about it.

Just BE. Now that’s a leap of faith.

I dare you. I share you. I am you.

We Are.

We are challenged and called and drawn to each other. We swim to the shore for safety and cover. And we love. Oh how we love. With abandon and hope and terror and understanding. Or do we. Or can we. Or shall we. Are we? Are we here for each other? Do you know what that means? The phone calls, the one-liners, the rehearsing your dreams. For me. My love. My sacred self. My one and only truest of truths… I’ve got you. I am you. I share you. I dare you.

Leap. And Leap again. And again.

I love you. I surrender. There is no place else to go, but home.

You’re welcome. It took you long enough.

 

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Becoming Visible…

img_4062I started to call this blog post, Going Big – then I felt a little small so I looked at what’s really going on and realized it’s more like becoming visible.  I’ve always had that quirky, outgoing ‘out there’ kind of way of being but the truth is I use that side of  myself to deflect – to keep others from seeing the me thats me… thats private…  that’s either my best self or my worst self depending on the moment.   Oh the things I know,  that I keep to myself.  The me I know, that I struggle to share, the questions I have that I hope to never find answers to.  Oh Life.  Oh Love.  Oh the day to day call for us to be more of who we are, to stand up, show up, grow up or just get through the day with a genuine smile.

The call.  What the heck is that?  What is that burning desire pulling each of us to show the f__k up?  For ourselves first.  Then for each other.  There.  I said it.   It’s holding our own in a sea of chaos…  creating boundaries that keep us safe and knowing when to move forward and when to retreat.   It’s the call to do our ‘work’ -to listen for and adjust our inner dialogue, to notice the quality of our experience depending on the people we’re surrounding ourelves  with, to find something beautiful in everyone we meet.  It’s the call to master the way in which we’re creating our everything.  And if that means becoming visible… then So Be It.   We’ve got this.

I’d rather be seen for who I am and  really be seen, than  pretend to be seen for who I’m not and be invisible.

Now…  about that feeling small –  I changed my mind.

You with me?

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